how to stop my heart....?

Stopped FB from so many days.. didnt hear her voice for so long.. didnt msg her... everytime i switch on wifi on my mobile, her pic gets synchronized form FB and everytime i look at her.. i get mesmerized.. i fall in more love with her again.. i miss her more n more... i dont have anything in life when i dont have you in my life.. how do i stop my heart from thinking about u.. from loving you..

I miss u so very much.. Why did you go away.. My love for you was never impure.. What wrong did I do that God punished me with all this...

Feel like I am all alone with my heart beating no more..

Just wana see you all my life.. see you keep smiling.. bringing up the most happiest moments in your life..

I know these wishes can no longer be fulfilled. .... I know my heart can't beat again....

I Love You.. n Will always Love you.. ForEver..

Its a never changing never ending love.. Just pray I can survive to keep up my promise.. As for now i just struggling for survival..

Love you .......

Your n only your's

Genie

Its 4:43 AM in the Morning. Listening to the song, "teri galiyon mein na rakhenge kadam..aaj ke baad.." Don't know what happend. Tear rolled down my eyes. I missed you like never before. Feel like I have become so cold from inside. I spoke to you last on 2nd November, 2011 and its been so long... I am not able to hold myself today..

Signing off now..

Will c u soon.. coz.. i cant live with out you..

If we were together in my dreams....

I woke up early this morning
in this bed that is so cold
Half asleep I reached for you
There was nothing there to hold

Last night I had the best dream
You had never told me goodbye
That you were not coming back
Was someone telling a cruel lie

Smell of perfume on your pillow
I struggle to hold back the tear
The chill sweeps through my body
as reality whispers in my ear

My love for you is not fading
Still not sure what went wrong
Lying here frozen in my bed
I refuse to believe that you're gone

I give your hug to your pillow
Wish that all is not what it seems
I would close my eyes forever
If we were together in my dreams

I miss u

I remember someone holding my hand, giving me the strength, promised to be with each other throughout the journey. The one source that keeps me moving ahead in life, making me strong, giving me the ability to stand fight the world.

I have come this far holding her hand, keeping her in my heart deep inside. Not sure how will I survive, but I do know that she is my source of survival.

Its a long journey still left over, i somewhere miss her, miss my energy. I wish to be with her all my life. Miss her eyes, miss her warmth, miss every moment spent with her. I still wish to keep looking into her eyes for hours, noticing every move of her, doing crazy lil things for her, watching her smile and that cute dimple of her's.

I miss u.. I miss u..

Genie

Aaj fir likhne ka mann hua hai..

aaj behke hue dil mein sailaab aaya hai
mujh se door mera khud ka saaya hai
sansein tham gayi aur samay ruk sa gaya hai..
beh rahi hain aakhein aur maan bhi bheeg sa gaya hai..

raaton ki neend jaa chuki hai aur chain kho sa gaya hai
baatein baaki hain aur hosh kho sa gaya hai
chal raha hu manzil ki ore har pal
par lagta hai ye raasta ab badh sa gaya hai

jisko chahte hain hum wo hame mil nahi paata
yaadon ke sahare yu jiya nahi jaata
mohabbat ho jaati hai ise sikhaya nahi jaata
ise karna to asaan hai par har kisi se nibhaya nahi jaata

phone kiya to usne phone nahi uthaya
awaaz sunani thi uski par sunn nahi paaya
ek waqt tha jab har roz baat karta tha usse
har raat ko jaag kar kabhi maine use tha sulaaya

chahta hu raat ke andhere mein use dekhta rahu
sunu uski saansein, uske dard ko sehta rahu
aakhon se padhu use aakhon se hi samajhta rahu
khamosh reh kar har pal use sunta rahu

khwahish hai ki har pal use hasata rahu
roothe jo wo to use manata rahu
samet lu use apni baahon mein sardi se bachata rahu
uske sang ek nayi duniya rachata rahu

wade kiya jo usse, unhe nibhata rahu
uski mushkil raahon ko uski asaan banata rahu
saaya bhi uska saath chod jaaye to kya
haath thame uska, saath nibhata rahu

lekin, fir kismat ne aaj ek naya mod dikhaya hai
mere chahat ko mujh se churaya hai
karna pada intazaar agle janam tak to kya hua
afsos itna hai ki ek baar fir kismat ne mujhe haraya hai

rok kar rakhta hu khud ko, par rok nahi paata
kabhi chahta hu bhulana use par bhula nahi paata
sochta hu ki kya wo meri dhadkan hai ya meri saanson ka hissa
par kya karu apni dhadkan aur saanson ko rok nahi paata

aaj fir likhne ka mann hua hai
par dil kuch bol nahi paata
mein kehta hu har roz uski kahaniya
par ab unhe koi sunn nahi paata